I have been told that I have to not purge while we stay with the hosts boyfriends parents. Four days with no purging and with eating 3 meals a day. I guess the boyfriend wil protect us from the bad man, but I am so scared.I just want to keep us safe, and to be safe we have to be small. If we are big we are no good for our job, we are no good for sex, and if we are no good for sex we are only good for beating. The boyfriend does not think this, but the bad man does, and the bad man said he would always find us, that our badness and corruption was within the fat and he could sense it.
If we eat and do not purge there will be fat, and if there is fat then the bad man can find us