Money stress :(

This is getting stupid.

I’ve dropped out of uni and applied for ESA, but there are several problems. The first is that after making 3 appointments with my GP I still have not got a doctors note… I can’t get there… it’s about 200m up the road, but I can’t get there…
Secondly as I haven’t got enough NI contributions I had to apply for the income ESA, so they need my and my partners details, this includes that fact that he worked abroad for a bit 3 years ago. But we cannot find his visa from then
Thirdly they want proof that I am not a student, but I don’t have anything… I dropped out just before Christmas, but I didn’t get a letter or anything like that. I emailed the uni yesterday about it and they want me to go in tomorrow to speak to someone about it… but the whole reason I left is that I CANNOT GET THERE…

Unfortuantly although the uni are being slow processing my withdrawl the loan company was not, so I didn’t get a January loan, so I can’t even fall back on that.

I just tried to ring to ask what I’m meant to do, but the phone got diverted to BT asking me to pay a bill… but I have no money
Luckily out internet is with tiscali and it looks like it’s been paid, well, either that or it’s going to go down in the next few days…

I don’t know what to do… I got my DLA last week, but it went straight away on rent and an overdue electric bill… So in reality all we have to live on is my partners loan, so £1086 to last until april… ye right, when our rent alone is £575 a month

I need a new prescription of my meds too… but I a) can’t seem to get to the doctors, and b) don’t have any money for the prescription charge…


people on the internet

the last few days have been awful…

We joined a new forum, one for students. We joined it to ask some advise on our future, but also to help and advise others. While there we discovered the debate section, the host used to be a debater, she loved it, but he people at the debating soceity shun us and forced us out… so we joined in that section in an attempt to learn how to deal with these sors of people (basically snobby tory twats who think they are better than everyone)

Firstly they kept insulting our spelling… we are dyslexic (appart from Michelle) and we have brain damage, our bad spelling is not from laziness or stupidity, it’s from illness. But these people did not care and kept insulting us over it over and over

Then someone told us we should be ashamed for admiting that we were mentall ill…

then we got into an got into an argument about benefits…

These are some of the things they said:

  • “You need to have the initiative to help yourself because it’s in your interest. When you go shopping you don’t wait for someone to offer you the best deal, you go out there and look for it.”
  • “Just saying, people who don’t know they are entitled to certain benefits probably don’t need them”
  • “Why should our hard earned money fund the “uneducated moron”? “
  • “you are going round giving MY money out for free. ******* congratulations. there isnt a single person in gb, including those on the dole, who lives in subsistance. these people who cba working need no more of my money. they deserve none of what they get already”

This realy hurt us… we cannot work, and when we stated this we were attacked… nasty PMs, nasty e-mails… it was awful…

We told them about our illnesses and little of our past and we were accused of lying!!!

We’ve left that forum now (after telling them EXACTLY what we thought of them) but we are still gettng the nasty e-mails 😦

why can people not just se me for me? us for us?
why do they all only see the wage packet, the job title, the parents social class, the diagnosis, the illness? We are NOT our parents, and out illnesses do NOT define us. Why can so few people see past the brokenness to the human below?

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